Dear friend,

I'm begging you with everything you have to look into your heart and see the truth. I love you and care about you, but you know all of this. 

I know that sometimes you will find it hard to think of me, but I hope you do. We had a long time, and a real good run at it. We devoted ourselves constantly, to the best of our abilities- but sometimes when people are as unique and individual as the two of us were, paths are easily crossed and different directions are pursued. 

The easy thing to do, is to pretend everything was okay- in order to make yourself feel better and to take the blame and place it on me. 

However, I  know that when you find the courage to look into your heart you will see that this wasn't working. 

I always looked up to you for never following the crowd, but now in the situation you were in three years ago I realize how scary it is- and I hope it didn't scare you so much that now you won't budge.

I want you to understand that I love you so much. 

Don't be angry, but smile- because now you had the ultimate control of your life. 

You are an incredibly special person who deserves special attention- someone who will sit on your roof with you until sunrise, and make love to you, and cry with you, and be as rock solid as I was to you in the beginning before my life took over. 

I hope you can understand this wasn't what my heart told me to do, but my mind- as logistically it only made sense that we be apart. 

One day in the near future I want to see you again.

And I want to see you happy, and grown up, and be proud of the boy that stole my heart and possessed it for so long. 

It hurts me to tear myself away from you, and I will never forget how it feels to sit in your arms- and to talk to you and have you listen and know how truly hilarious you are.

Make me proud, and make yourself proud.

You have the ultimate potential. 

Use everything you have.

I love you forever,

Reilly