& lt's ptnd ths nvr hppnd

I
can't
bring
myself
to
accomplish
anything!

It's called procrastination, something I'm extremely familiar with.
It's frustrating.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow- wednesday.
I'm looking forward to waking up to my mom- telling me a story to make me smile
and putting on my sweatshirt and gently tripping down the stairs to the kitchen- where I will eat my Multigrain Cheerios & banana.
I'm looking forward to rushing around, just to make it to the car in time.
& Slipping on the driveway in my already soaking boots.
Snow trickling down from the sky onto each eyelash-
Causing me to blink profusely until they have melted away into the back of my brain.


Some people avoid routine.
Can't stand it.
And believe me, I've felt that way too- the feeling of dreading what you know will come each day.
But being content with routine, forces you to pay extra attention to the things that appear different each day-

Maybe I'm trying to justify my own pathetic life because I know this is more or less how I'll live the rest of my life.
HA!

But yes, I like routine.

I'm looking forward for my perfectly normal routine that leaves me oh so content to include someone who makes me melt.





Lets Pretend This Never Happened.